thinking...again.

So you know what? I don't. I don't know what. What?

What is going on? Why does the power go out? Why is it STILL out? Why do I mess up all the time? Why is God still so good to me? Why don't I have time for anything fun anymore? If I don't have any time, why do I waste so much of it? Why does life go by so slow but WAY too fast?

So, I’m guessing you all know that it’s that time of the month again. Yep....the weekend that I think. What’d you think I was going to say?...

but a better question: why am I feeling sorry for myself? My life is amazing. Its great and I couldn't ask for anything more than I already have. Well, I could but that doesn't mean I should.

So what does all this babbling mean? Well, I don't know.

I guess I just want to know what’s going to happen with my life. I know that’s ridiculous, but I’m getting tired of trekking on, expecting that things are going to get better. Because they’re not going to! Not if I don’t do something differently. What I’m doing wrong I don’t know for sure. Well, I definitely know a few things I’m doing wrong, but I just don’t know what to do differently exactly. Other than just to seek. Which, I will admit, I have been…sucking…at.

I don’t mean to complain, or make you feel sorry for me, just…I don’t know. Just to inform I guess. Just to…babble. Because although some say its laughter, I believe that babbling is the best medicine. Because even though the listeners may not understand you, the babbler sure works things out that way!

So thanks for being listeners. And for ALWAYS being there to listen, even though I hardly ever make sense.